I want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this opportunity to see shining examples of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for the first time in a long while, I do not feel alone.
Part of me wanted to stay longer, but beneath that desire was the thought that I would be doing so for the wrong reason; as a way to avoid my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I had had any insights. What I’m about to share was not yet clear at that time; only on the drive away did it coalesce.
That morning, several lines from a Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never should have told you, never should have let you see inside. Don’t want it troubling your mind, won’t you let it be?” This confused me as I could not think of anything that I had said that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don’t want it troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the most prominent fear I had in coming to the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere with its residents’ peace of mind, simply by my presence alone. This belief that I could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for many years, and has colored many of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness soon after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel as if the belief is being (has been?) released.
There are other things that happened that felt important, but I can’t think of them right now.
From the time I first turned alert to the stunning and awe-inspiring presence of Lord, I’ve enjoyed examining many amazing spiritual works just like the Bible (my favorite areas would be the Sermon on the Mount and Psalms), the Bhagavad-Gita, the Upanishads, the Koran and the poetry of Kabir and Rumi. Do not require come near to the wonder of a Program in Miracles. Examining it having an open brain and center, your doubts and difficulties clean away. You feel alert to a splendid enjoy deep within you – deeper than anything you knew before. The future starts to seem so brilliant for you personally and your liked ones. You feel passion for everyone including these you previously have tried to leave excluded. These activities are extremely powerful and occasionally toss you down stability a little, but it is worth it: A Program in Miracles introduces you to a love therefore calm, therefore solid and therefore universal – you will wonder how so lots of the world’s religions, whose intention is allegedly the same experience, got so off track.
I wish to claim here to any Christian who thinks that his church’s teachings do not truly satisfy his hunger to learn a type, merciful and loving Lord, but is notably scared to read the Class due to others’ statements it is irregular with “true” Christianity: Don’t fear! I have see the gospels many times and I assure you a Course in Miracles is totally consistent with Jesus’ teachings while he was on earth. Don’t anxiety the fanatical defenders of exclusionist dogma – these bad people think themselves to be the only real companies of Jesus’ meaning, and the sole ones worthy of his delights, while all other will go to hell. A Program in Miracles reflects Jesus’ correct message: unconditional love for *all people*. While he was in the world, Jesus thought to choose a tree by their fruit. So give it a decide to try and see the way the fruits that ripen in your life taste. If they style bad, you are able to reject A Course in Miracles. But if they style as special as quarry do, and the millions of other correct seekers who are finding A Program in Wonders to be nothing less than the usual incredible treasure, then congratulations – and may your center often be abundantly full of calm, supportive joy.